I think maybe I have pnd? But the idea freaks me out. I have made gp app for next Friday to get referral to a councillor I have seen in the past and I'm sure go and councillor will both support me but I'm kinda curious to see what outside view is?
I feel like I don't have pnd, rather motherhood has triggered off anxiety I always had? Not sure the label even matters I suppose.
It was Suggested I write down my symptoms to take to gp with me so here goes
I worry and panic about almost everything
There is very lil that doesn't worry me
I never ever feel relaxed or calm. I always feel on edge.
I get some relief when the kids (13mths and 6wks) are asleep but even then I feel anxious about what I should/need to get done and also thinking about them waking up
I feel stressed about not getting enough sleep which makes it hard to sleep
Day to day I am a control freak. I feel like if I control everything and everyone it will reduce the opportunities for anything to go wrong.
I am consumed about thinking about things that could go wrong particularly with my boys health and well being
I have developed an anxiety about food allergies with my son and restrict his diet
I create elaborate systems to control and manage all my anxieties
I am mentally exhausted from all this
I worry my boys will get sick, particularly worry about rashes and bites.
It is getting worse and worse to the point I feel like I'm getting a but OCD in my daily life. Daily life is busy so the 'better' I do at it. Ie managing kids, household, bills, work is almost feeding my OCD and justifying my anxiety? Does that make sense
Sorry its a bit all over the place