I'm not sure I want to be a Christian any more.
First, prayer is a waste of time. Prayer seems to be a way of getting what we want. It seems that life a deck of cards, and you just have to play the hand you are dealt. It seems that God will do what God wants regardless.
Also, the ot isn't relivant. And Christians are so unloving. They are good at helping the homeless etc but cant help those in the church struggling.