So that's a small selection of emotions I am feeling at the moment. It’s my first pregnancy, I am 31, nearly 6 weeks pregnant and very excited. It is a much wanted pregnancy and I am blessed with a wonderful husband who is also over the moon.
I just don't know if how I am feeling overall is normal though. On top of the feeling of excitement I am also somehow convinced that something might go wrong. So much so, that I have intentionally kept myself quite cool, calm and collected about the entire thing, not getting too emotionally attached and being prepared to make hard decisions if I have to.
I swing between feels of exhilaration and excitement to being almost convinced that that something will be wrong with the baby…. so much so that I have already talked to my husband about what we would do if this was the case. There is no family history or logical reason for me to think this way- it is totally irrational. I don’t feel stressed or anxious, just very matter-of-fact.
I think some of my fear and worry stems from a traumatic family event that happened a couple of years ago out of the blue. Since then, I convince myself that terrible things obviously can and will happen (e.g. have developed a fear of flying since then, despite having travelled the world previously).
Is it normal to be this worried for a first time pregnancy? I am a very realistic and practical person so I am aware that the risk is very low but at the same time, preparing myself for bad news. Anyone else feel/felt this way???