Lol cass it's hard isn't it. I don't know where I am at in my cycle either. I didn't use opks and I stopped temping at cd18 which was when my holiday started. We only DTD once and I'm pretty sure it was too late, so I'm not even really waiting to test so much as wanting to know when I'm due lol. I'm holding strong, and keeping my craziness under wrap for now at least. Will have one more casual cycle next month too, then maybe get back into opks etc.