I have a phobia of driving & it's ruining my life. Public transport around here is really bad so it's pretty hard to get places without relying on my DH (who works long hours).
I actually do have my licence but I'm too afraid to drive alone. When I drive with my DH he usually ends up yelling at me which makes the problem worse. Plus he usually gets home so late that we don't get a chance to go. There is no-one else I can drive with - I will never drive with my parents again because they literally screamed at me from the first time I ever sat in the drivers seat until the point where I just gave up & said I was never driving with them ever again. Not to mention my parents constantly (and still) telling me I'm being 'pathetic'. They don't understand, have never even tried. Just cause my dad grew up on a farm, driving the paddock bashers in the fields when he was 13 - there were no other cars around! I've had heaps & heaps driving lessons (both before getting my licence & since) & they did not help with my fear.
The majority of the drivers around here are really horrible & aggressive on the road. Basically every second person has a problem with me driving the speed-limit (and yes I've had my speedo checked) and start tail-gating me & being aggressive & intimidating. I have so much trouble dealing with that & it really freaks me out. I've even been threatened a few times just for driving the speed limit! If I can pull over to let them go I usually do, but five minutes later the same thing happens again. Sometimes I feel like the only choice I have is to drive the speed that they want me to drive.........
Plus I seem to have literally no spatial awareness when driving, but I have not noticed this in other aspects of my life. I have spent hours & hours driving around in parking lots trying to figure out the dimensions of my car & how close to things I am but I just can't understand it. I even freak out if my DH is getting out of a parking space cause it always looks like he is going to hit the car next to us, even though he assures me he is not. Therefore this doesn't make me feel safe on the roads as I can't park, I can't merge, I can't pass parked cars/people walking on the road/cyclists and so on without someone there to tell me if I'm going to hit them or not.
I've basically just given up. But now I'm pregnant & I want to be able to take my baby to mothers groups etc & places when they are older. Not to mention the doctor etc. As I said, I have driving lessons & they didn't help. I've seen a psych & tried graded exposure & this works to an extent - until something happens that freaks me out again (ie getting tail-gated, threatened etc, or just not being able to get my car out of a car-park etc) and then I just go right back to square one again.
Now I can't even join my work colleagues for xmas lunch tomorrow because I have no way of getting there & they are all expecting me to be there.
It's destroying my life, I can't do anything I want to do. I basically have no friends cause I can never get anywhere to see/meet them, I don't do any social activities unless DH is there too so he can drive me. I finish work fairly early then just go & sit at home cause I can't go anywhere. I don't want to be like this anymore but I just don't know how to get over it.