ok so over the last 4 or 5 years i have posted so many times about my kids w*anker dad. without going into all the ridiculousness and horribleness that has gone one, i'll sum it up.
so ex and i broke up 19months ago, i moved and got my own place with the kids but basically he and i never stopped dating/sleeping together/having family time and outings. so really, we have been casually dating on and off for the last 4 years and neither of us met or got involved with anyone else. in the last month we decided we would finally just get back together and we'd been discussing when he was going to move into my place. he spoke to his housemates and told them he was going to be moving soon, and i spoke to my family to let them know and was reorganising stuff in the house too accommodate him. he also cleaned out the garage too, which was a big task. so everything was great, we had a really good family day last sunday together, and then after an arguement on the phone sunday night, we didnt speak til thursday. he then told me why he was so weird and hadnt really been speaking to me, the reason was.... "im kind of seeing someone" . my reply... "what?!?! in the last FOUR DAYS?!?!?!?!?!?"
obviously, that's not the case, but im perplexed and hurt beyond f***ing belief. why the HELL would he fully commit himself to me and our family? why would he pursue someone else when we are basically in a friggin relationship? was he sleeping with me and someone else at the same time? he has since gone one to tell me "this is only a very very recent thing... im not in a relationship with her... and im taking a big risk by cutting it off with you.. but... i might have stronger feelings for her than you".. like, literally, WTF. he has completely played me for the fool, treated me like absolute and complete rubbish, f***ed my kids around and embarrassed me infront of my family. i have been feeling nauseous for nearly 3 days. im disgusted by this and i didnt see it coming in a million years.
i know im not the first person this has ever happened to, but ive never experienced such revolting behavour before and i CANT WRAP MY MIND AROUND IT!!!! i'm holding myself together by every now and then it is too much and i just have to crrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy my eyes out. i feel like cr.ap really.
can i just get some encouraging words and KNOW that im not alone in this and other women have been through it too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant handle the anger im feeling