I never, ever imagined that I'd be in this position... I was always against abortion...
To just be factual...
My other half lives in the USA... after returning to Australia, found out I was 6 weeks pregnant... we were using contraceptives..
He does not want to be a father, and is not ready to be.
He is much younger than me.
I told him I was late, and the fear and certainty was enough to hear... we couldnt stay together, his family would kick him out and hate me..
I ended up telling him after a few days it was a false alarm.. and the relief in his voice.....
I can carry this burden alone, I do not want to ruin his life or his families..
Now about me, I have no family or friends in Australia.. I'm very much alone, and rent a room from a female acquaintance.
I'm unable to provide a real home for a baby, or properly support it.. my other half does not have a job, and his family couldnt afford to help raise it..
The baby would be born into a very unfair situation and life.. I mean, I can not even afford to eat decently.
This is why I feel that termination should go ahead..
But at the same time I'm torn.. how can I kill an innocent baby... at 10 weeks will it feel any pain? Am I doing something completely evil?
And what if this is our last chance to have a child together? I am almost 30... fertility levels decline severely once I hit the 3-0, do they not?
I dont want to have a baby in these circumstances but I dont know what to do...
Any advice, not nasty criticism would be appreciated.. please..