I just wanted to vent really, as I know no one can really tell me for sure.
I have PCOS, and I also have a history of cancer (melanoma), but have been cancer free for 5 years. I also have health anxiety which started before the cancer. Usually it's fairly under control, but whenever I detect something not 'usual' I can freak out.
I have been trying to get pregnant for over a year, and had a few wonky periods and horribly cramping n the last 5 months that lead to me getting my ovaries scanned. I finally got my period about 2-3 weeks after that...
And now I have a positive pregnancy test about 3 weeks after my next period would have been due.
Scan results just showed that I still had PCOS... of course.
I can't be happy about a positive result, as I am panicking that I am testing positive because I have gotten a reproductive cancer... I think this is somewhat conflated when I told my husband, and he said : " I'm not getting his hopes up until a doctor tells me". I guess that's rational, but it instantly put me down the path of what other things it could be.
I have occasional bouts of terrible anxiety, I don't know how I am going to sleep at all tonight. I will book an appointment with the docs tomorrow.
I just feel it's somewhat therapeutic to get this out. And maybe I am not the only one that loses the plot about this stuff..