We lost our beautiful baby on Wednesday after TTC for 3 years. It happened very quickly. After seeing bubby on a scan in the morning with beautiful HCG numbers to pouring blood several hours later and passing the baby within an hour of the bleeding starting. It was rather traumatic....I've never seen so much blood. This was our first pregnancy and we conceived via our second cycle of IVF. We were so excited. Now I'm just devastated and heart broken and lost. Since leaving the hospital late Wednesday night I've not left the house or gotten out of pjs except for a trip to the doctors for a script of diazepam cause I'm so distressed I haven't slept. I don't know what to do now. I'm just empty. I cry all day long and when I'm not crying I just stare at the tv but I have no idea what I'm watching. My fertility specialist is sending me out support options and I think I will need some counselling. I'm obviously not coping. DH has been my rock. I some how have to find the strength to go see my fertility specialist on Monday for repeat bloods and a check up. I'm still bleeding and passing small clots and cramping. I wish it would hurry up and be over so I can start to move forward and look to the future.