I have a 14 week old daughter - and things are generally going well. (I got some great advice about her sleeping a few days ago, so thank you for that!)
My daughter was unable to breast feed. There was a delay to my milk coming in (due to haemorrhage during birth) she was jaundiced and she had a tongue-tie that we got cut when she was 8 days old. We saw multiple lactation consultants but unfortunately she was never able to successfully feed from the best. I have flat-ish nipples. We tried nipple shields.
Because of this I have been exclusively breast pumping. I'm talking every 3 hours around the clock for up to an hour each time (this is how long and regularly I had to do it in order to produce enough to sustain her - a plan I worked out with the MCHN.)
I am lucky enough that my husband is doing his PhD so mostly works from home. He has been an enormous support and cares for her while I pump. I can't do it anymore. I lose so many hours in the day and can't keep up in top of housework (my husband is doing far more than his share, not that he minds but he really has to work) and I miss out on caring for my daughter. I adore her but worry that she doesn't even realise I'm her mum because I'm not breast feeding her and because even when I'm trying to interact with her while I'm pumping it's limited because I have always needed to massage my breasts to aid the milk flow or I'm there waaaay longer (hence hands free pumping bras did not work!)
I've had two bouts of mastitis and been hospitalised and I am so sick of this bloody pump. I am also studying. I have two weeks worth stashed in the freezer (due to an early over supply that was killed by the mastitis) so I can comfortably get her to 4 months exclusively on breast milk.
Why am I so hung up on this? I have ZERO judgement for women who choose to formula feed for whatever reason whereas I am racked with guilt and a part of me says "why can't you pump for 8 more weeks, slacker?" The thought of 8 more weeks leaves me feeling completely overwhelmed. She's thriving on my milk and I know 'breast is best'...But I am done and I feel so guilty.
What were your experiences like switching to formula? Anyone?