Yesterday I had my engagement party! Something I thought 'we' should be looking forward too etc.. Of course I planned everything (we chose the food, where to have it) but last minute things flowers, etc i had to deal with as df couldn't care less but I did.
I let him invite his friends (who he hasn't really seen in over 2 years) not my fault as df has his car... I never stop him! One visits I can handle in small doses when he does come over I just goto bed (they play games pc sort of thing) df has changed given up pot etc had a baby (they still go out town drink copious amounts booze)
ALL his friends got so effing **** faced including him. Falling over in shrubs, swearing smoking around my dd and me (I'm pregnant). My friend with her baby. I ended up losing is and saying excuse me wtf? Go smoke outside of this area it's not on smoking in front of me or my daughter! At the end of the night one of his fh makes left by doing a burn out and almost took me and my mum out 😳😳😳 I stuck my finger up! I was so furious wtf? I paid over 4,000 for you to treat my function like crap and do this. I'm so ashamed and so furious at df I just want to pack my things and leave. I ended up losing it because he wasn't able to help with our daughter all day I didn't trust his drunk *** I pushed him (probably out of line) I feel so embarrassed :'(
Then came the cake scenario......... I wanted a photo of us next to our cake? Isn't that normal.....? Or am I wrong? My maid of honour helps set it up. I go fetch df and come back mil lets everyone take a effing cake! WTF!! I already said 'no I want a photo first just wait' her reply was your sil got a photo of the table etcwho cares! ME I CARE! These are my memories not yours! I opened all my cards etc not one card from sil of mil i dont care about a gift or anything but a card I can put in our scrap book. Then my sil took the car that my mum was meant to take me and dd home in because I don't drive with the baby seat to take family home.........
I'm so angry, hurt and just ****ed off. I didn't spend night with my df and daughter just on my own in our new house alone