So my doctors have finally realised that my current condition has left me with zero quality of life, suffering depression and bipolar on top of this and I'm stuck in a rut wondering why they can't just put me out of my misery, if I was an animal I would of been put down a long time ago.
A few months ago I put my back out, went and saw a myotherapist who manipulated my hips instead, problem is, I was born with hip dysplasia that was incorrectly treated, he somehow managed to move them from where they had naturally fused and left me in chronic pain since.
After X-rays, ultrasound, cortisone injection and many pain killers I'm no better, of not worse since the injection.
I spend most days in bed, I can't sit or stand for long periods of times, I can't walk far and have a limp. I cant pick anything up off the ground.
I am in pain from my mid spine to mid thighs each and everyday.
I'm on 15mg targin (new age oxy) twice a day, endone and Valium and it still doesn't help. I'm still stuck in bed.
I'm over it, I broke down at the doctors on Saturday after my body started having spasms Friday night and they are finally sending an urgent request to the hospital to get me fixed.
I'm just so over it, no one understands not only what it's like to be in constant pain but just how worthless I feel these days.
I want my life back, I want to enjoy the school holidays with my DD, I want to walk the dogs, go to the park, work!
I'm seriously at breaking point and hate being this burden on everyone.