Hi, I am sitting here feeling constantly sick with worry. Heavy hearted because at our 6week 2day scan on Monday there was no heartbeat. I am to go in for another scan next Monday, and am slowly going insane in the meantime, getting very little sleep and cannot help thinking that yet again I will have another baby cut out of me. In the last 2 years I have had an ectopic, losing my right tube, 2 chemical pregnancies a missed miscarriage at 12 weeks requiring 2 d&c's due to the first not working and then another 2 D&C's after losing yet another baby a few months ago due to things adhering to my uterus. We have endured so much heartache, and my body has endured so much trauma and loss, I do not know if I can bare yet another D&C to have yet another baby cut out of me. I fear the worst as it seems to be the pattern with us and struggle to believe we may be in the 10% minority that don't see a heartbeat at this stage - as our highly experienced sonographer is hoping we will be, and feel it is inevitable we will have to go through yet another IVF cycle - too many to count. At the moment I guess I am just hoping there may be some stories of hope out there, not just that this little one may make it, but of some other wonderful women who have endured so much pain to finally get their little one. I feel like I have lost so many little babies now that I am almost certainly cursed. I would rather not be falling pregnant at all than going through this. Thank you for reading.