I don't often post, but I just need to write this down.
Firstly, I am pretty sure my BFP is about to become a failed BFP.
Secondly, I hate that my body is so weird. Here's the long drawn out story, for anyone interested.
On 26 Aug, I started my period. It was 4 days long and heavy. It stopped. Then on 6 Sep, I started bleeding again. First it was light, then gradually got heavier. I thought "hmm that's odd, time for the ob-gyn". Made the appointment for Wed 11/9. Before I went in, I thought I'd better do a pregnancy test, because he always asks if I am pregnant. Imagine my suprise when whilst I'm still bleeding, I see two lines pop up on the FRER test! OMG, first excitement. Then panic.
Holy ***p this isn't right, bleeding is NOT good. Get to the ob-gyn appointment and advise him that as of that morning, I got a BFP. He looks worried, is perplexed enough that my cycle has just been 11 days, and is wondering of course how that is even possible...then says he'll have a feel of my tummy; orders blood tests and an u/s for Wednesday. He's very frank and tells me he's not holding out much hope.
I attend the u/s - the sonographer tells me she can see nothing. I ask what that means, and I'm told that either "you've passed everything; or it's too early to see anything (eg, you're before 5 weeks)".... awesome, no answers there.
Rang the ob-gyn office, he said to come back monday for blood test results. Great. that's like 5 full days more of wondering and not having any answers.
I figured that I should buy a digital test - because at least that would predict conception for me, and I'd know roughly how far along I am - the results say that conception was 1-2 weeks ago (so 3 weeks pregnant). Still positive result.
Since then I've had headaches and been tired. But the bleeding hasn't stopped. It settled a little bit yesterday, but its still there and still going. Grr.
I'm so frustrated, I need to vent. I just want Monday to come so I know. I feel like I've lost it, but then sometimes I feel like I haven't. I've never miscarried before and quite frankly it feels a bit scary. I'm trying to hold out hope, but it's so hard when you know you shouldn't be bleeding.
Sorry. Just hating my body right now.