A few years ago I cheated on DP, where weren't dating, just sleeping with each other, and no one else. So I guess you could say we were dating. We had a massive fight, didn't talk for weeks and I cheated on him. I didn't know at the time, the guy was his best friend. I told DP the next day.
We became serious, and started seeing each other properly, all the while he couldn't trust me 100% and always thought I was cheating when I wasn't.
I have a 5yr Old DS from a previous relationship, I do share care with his dad. So we have him half the time.
Two years ago, DP moved in with us, and a few months suggested he wanted me to have a baby with him, so I am now 3 months pregnant (yay) and we are both very excited.
However, we had his friends ( a couple ) come stay and live with us for a while, they had use of my parents car that we used as a third car.
Last week when I was at work, the couple texted me and said they had left my town, and were travelling to another town which is 1500km away. ( from townsville to brisbane )
I told them no, I told them to turn around, but there was nothing I do could do, I said I was going to have my parents report the car stolen, and they said they would be back this weekend coming.
Now, they did this to us 3 weeks ago, took the car from TSV to BNE. They left on a friday, said they'd be back monday ( they weren't ) then wednesdsay ( they still weren't ) then friday comes ( a week later, still no car ) I get a call that night after numerous texts and calls to say they would be home on sunday. i was beyond furious.
So yes, they took the car again for a second time, and I am more than furious. I knew DP wouldn't let me report it stolen with my parents, because she has gone down to visit family, I didn't mind the first time, but its when they didnt bring the car back I got very p.ssed off.
Yesterday, I went to the police station to have a chat to the police, DP called when I was in there, and I lied and said I was at the DR, when I got out exactly 10 minutes later, I called and said " honey i lied, I wasn't at the dr, I was at the polic station having a chat about the car to see what position we were in. " And then he hung up, sent me a message " Go to hell you Cheater "
I then went home in tears, he was so angry, he wouldn't listen to me, I told him I never cheated ( because I sure as hell didn't ) and he kept walking away, he drove off, he didn't want me to touch him, he didn't want me to sit next to him, he didn't want me to even have my hand touching his back while we were in bed sleeping, he left this morning without giving me a kiss, I got out of the shower and he was just gone. And we always give each other a kiss goodbye.
The reason I didn't tell him I was going to the police station, was because he wouldn't have let me go, he would have told me to wait till the weekend, but I can't wait, I need that car back, and I need to ensure its going to be back this weekend, as its my parents car, and they gave me two different days when they would be back and they weren't and it put me under immense stress.
So yes I did betray his trust, but only because he wouldn't let me go in the first place. So now he thinks I've cheated And he's pushing me away, I'm having panic attacks and bawling my eyes out and coughing from the crying, and I'm sure its raising my blood pressure through the roof.
I completely understand why he wouldn't trust me, because I did lie, even though I told him the truth 10 minutes later. But I didn't cheat, and this is what he's pushing me away for, not touching me, not hugging or kissing, or even being in the same room as me.
I said to him, that we can call the police station to proof that I was in there having a chat, but he didn't listen.
Deep down, i don't think he'll leave this relationship, but this is killing me and torturing me. yet if I'm feeling this way, I can't imagine how he would be feeling. I've left my phone at home so if he wants to go through it he can, he knows my password to my facebook.
I dont know what else to do, and I have no one to talk to about this