Hi all, we all know anger is a real feeling that one can sometimes control and others we can not control (or so it would seem)
I have always had a bit of a short temper and perhaps a little impatient with certain things however I have found my temper worse with having my DS whom by the way is a great baby and is just about always happy.
I find myself not able to cope with some things (seems like some days my coping is very minimal) but then other days I am fine or more than fine but when I get tired and angry watch up because I throw things, much to my DH disgust (he hates it when I throw things but it's just my outlet it makes me feel like I can release the anger however because of his past volatile relationship he has banned me from throwing things which makes me even more angry quite frankly) I really try not too though.
I am trying to stay calm and work through my anger but I am finding it difficult I think there is alot of triggers and I guess I just have to deal with them one at a time.
Even though DS and I were healthy all the way through pregnancy and birth; I had a hard time getting him out (long story short - 4 days of inductions and in the end he was C-Sec which I really hated having to have done) and I don't think I have really accepted it. I had really terrible time bf'ing and had to call it quits 9 weeks in which I was absolutely cut up by.
I know there are many other things that 'get my goat' so much so I want to inflict harm (mostly to non living things) but I have threatened my DH before because he annoys me so much sometimes but I am pretty sure I would never do anything to anyone especially my DS, I have walked away before and know to do it if I loose it.
Can anyone relate?
Does anyone know of any online counselling or help out there?
I know I need to get calm and work through my issues but some support would be great. We just moved to Townsville and although I have my DS (stay at home) and my DH coming home every day (late avo's) and his days off it a bit lonely and isolated.
Thank you for reading
Love and light