Thank you everyone. I was ok this morning then super depressed and anxious and nauseous this afternoon. Tonight I was allowed extra oxycodone so am feeling ok. The pain and the withdrawals are making the depression so much worse. Next time I have an episode dh is gojng to call an ambulance and go from there. I have so many moments when I literally feel like I am drowning and cannot go on. I can't explain it. Why does this affect me?