Thanks Hun. I'm holding on. The stays in three different units didn't really help because I wasn't wanted in any of them
But I'm pretty much stabilised and highly medicated so keeping it together. I love my life, my hubby, my kids, my job, I know god loves me despite my short comings. I just want to be able to enjoy it and cope with it unmedicated one day.
Now that I have private health I am going to find a good private unit that will deal with all my issues once work shuts down for the winter in may. Hubby is supportive of this. I will have to go into hospital to detox from the suboxone and Xanax anyway.