I"m so sorry you are going through this ffrenchie, i just wish i could make it all better for you. You are such an amazingly strong person, and i'm so proud of you for seeking support and help in the midst of you going through this really difficult time. Mental health is so overlooked in society and there's not much support out there, must be even harder being regional. Much love as you work your way through this hun xx
Have you been to the the hospital that has the mental health service before? You seem reluctant to seek help from them. If it is no to the first answer then maybe it is time to ring them and ask what they can do for you.
No I haven't. Dh gets clients admitted all the time though. I'm only reluctant because I'm scared of being rejected I think, the other day when the gp couldnt help me i fell into a pit so fast. also the last time i was In hospital a nurse told me i wasnt bulimic even though id thrown up
Nearly everday For 17 years.
And also the huge upheaval on the family.
Nearly tried to admit myself this afternoon. The ed puts me in such a dark place. Was allowed an extra oxy which took the edge off. I actually hate that my life is controlled by drugs. Drugs to make me happy, drugs to stop me losing it completely, drugs to help the pain (which they don't anymore anyway) drugs to make my heart beat slow enough. Ugh.
Would admitting yourself be such a bad thing? You need help and support to get through this.
If you can't get help in time have you thought about taking leave from/giving up your job? Perhaps not having the added stress of a timeframe breathing down your neck would be a relief and help.
Your health and your families happiness is the most important thing.
No, it would be a good thing. I feel I need to be somewhere to get through this, it's just hard to get in anywhere apparently without having the option of private. They said that I'd only have a chance if I went in during an episode that they could witness.
I can't take leave, I'm contracted to run the town pool and without me there is no pool (the only recreational facility we have.). I've had since January off as we were severely flooded with lots of damage. Besides, it's really a great job, I get to take the kids and we need the money. I would not like to lose it. I know what you're saying though, if I had two months I'd be able to wait the waiting period on phi and go somewhere private. Having said that, I need to deal with it now anyway
Just letting you know you're in my thoughts. I wish things were easier for you.
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