I am pregnant with our first baby. I have suffered from severe clinical depression and anxiety a couple years ago, and was doing the best I have in a long time since, and then found out we are pregnant! I fell pregnant the first month off the pill which was a big shock as I never expected things happen that fast. Since being pregnant I am struggling with the anxiety again, I am also very lost in my life. I live on our farm with my husband and work with his family farming. I played an active role in doing farm and stock work, driving tractors and found the best way to help my anxiety and such was to keep busy, since becoming pregnant I am not allowed to do stock work and so alot of what I did in case something hurts the baby. Looks like I won't be able to drive the tractor in a months time baling as its considered too dangerous by my husband and his family. I am so frustrated as my family in law treat me like a precious doll and judge me on what I do, I feel out of control, its my body, I feel so lost like I have lost who I am, I can't even do my job I guess anymore. I am really struggling and have negative feelings towards the pregnancy because its changing my life so much. I am not sure if I am being silly, I am just finding it really hard. I am not enjoying my pregnancy, I have had severe all day morning sickness up until about 18 weeks also which left me quite depressed. Just to clarify, my husband is a wonderful very supportive man, who I know is just wanting to protect me and the baby, but he can't possibly understand how I am feeling. I am finding things hard as I am not enjoying this pregnancy and feel terrible guilt over that. I just needed a place to put my feelings down, so I hope that's okay. If anyone wants to share or might be someone to talk to that would be great.