i know no words can help the pain you probably are feeling but ...
you are young, this was your first go, you achieved implantation... Well done.
As my FS said to me - in sorting its genetic accidents, nature can be so cruel. There probably wasn't anything you could have done to change the outcome of this.
After my first cycle didn't work I too left BH for a while to heal also. What was wonderful was knowing the support was here when I came back and was ready to try again. In the past week my heart broke over and over and I kept putting it back together again, only to feel it break again.... It is very very difficult but remember that we as women are built to weather these storms. Acceptance is so close I can almost touch it now.
It's hard to find a way to express that deep devastation after so much joy, but I know you will find your way.
I'm glad that you celebrated your baby while he or she was with us. That's something to be proud of and something that he or she deserved.
take care of yourself and DH ... My furbabies are a huge comfort also.
Thankyou for being such a wonderful and inspiring part of this thread... See you when u get back. Don't give up X
ps pm me anytime if u need to