Hugs OP, I know how you feel. I have suffered EDs my entire teenage/adult life and it's soul destroying. I hate pregnancy especially... I can't deal with the weight even though I know it's the best for my baby. People tell me not to worry and it all comes off but it's all I think about. Makes me feel so guilty.
It's really hard to be told your feelings are irrelevant and you couldn't understand. This is going the other way but I remember my first group therapy and I was told by one of the girls I was too big to be in an ED recovery group... It threw me so much! I was too small to be considered healthy but too big to be considered sick?! Argh.
If you ever need to talk PM me. I hope you're doing ok xxx