I'm about to run away and never come back. I'm at my wits end with my 9 month old. I had a complicated pregnancy of sorts... And from the minute she popped out of me shes been difficult. She doesn't sleep, she's a fussy eater, she hates to be cuddled, she bites and screams at the top of her lungs. She will not stop moving, she cries to be picked up, you pick her up and she arches her back and screams to get down so you put her down and try to sit down with her and she screams and tries to climb her way upon me.
She screams when you put her in her high hair/car seat/ trolley....she makes her body go all floppy and heavy when you try and pick her up out of the bath if she doesn't want to get out yet.
I have to rock her asleep most times.... Half an hour of rocking for a 20 minute nap...if I'm lucky. She wakes every 20-30 mins all through the night and has done since she was born. I'm physically and mentally exhausted. I just want to sleep....and sometimes never wake up.
Every single day is hard.
I have another child who is 7 and she's such a great help but I find myself relying on her too much to watch the baby whilst I do tidying etc.
i don't get any time to myself.... I have to shower with her, we co sleep because its the only way I get any sleep at all....she is with me 24/7.
I don't have any family and friends are none existent. I can't imagine putting her in daycare and her screaming and crying all day for me... It'd break my heart.
hubby works hard and just cannot/won't help out. I'm the woman and his is my job... His is to bring in the money.
Baby had has a few medical issues and is on medication which causes sleep disturbances and there isn't anything I can do about that. She is in quite a bit of pain sometimes which has caused us to make allowances for her "behaviour".... We have gone with the flow with her so to speak....doing what we need to in order for her to have any sleep at all (rocking her/co sleeping etc).
But I've seriously had enough. I can't do it anymore. Every aspect of who she is is hard work.
I have tried Everything.....all the advice in books, about eating/sleeping/behaviour. I'm a good mum, I thought I knew what I was doing, my eldest turned out amazing and I have tried as much as I can to parent this one the same... But , and don't judge me , I have found myself searching for those 3sixes on her head!!
I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself,,.. Life seems so hard right now...and I know I have it easy compared to some... I know I'm just being a sook....but I don't think I ever imagined I could have a kid like this... I'm not sure I'd have had her looking back had I known
i can't stop crying.... I don't have pnd, I have had it before, I think I'm just seriously overtired.
I don't leave the house. I can't face the world. I don't go out for weeks sometimes... I have dds friends over and she goes to theirs after school sometimes... But even then I hate having to talk to their mums. I hate having people tell me to make friends. I don't want friends... I don't want to go to mums groups and talk... I get panic attacks just having people talk to me in a lift!! I don't feel worthy of their time... Especially men. I think they are just pitying me. One tries to talk to me and I go all red and can't breathe and come across as rude whilst I try not to pass out with shame.
yeah, I have issues I guess lol.
Has anyone else had a really bad baby? Please tell me they grow out of it!!!