Hi Gampa I'm really sorry to hear that your having these struggles - especially with your two little ones and obviously having had an emotional week with your miscarriage and d&c. It's not nice to hear that your hubby hasn't been supportive and seems nonchalant about the whole thing - perhaps it's his way of dealing with it? I understand on some level what you are going through with your hubby. When Orlando was born he was SO supportive and my absolute rock and I seriously couldn't have done it without him - he pushed me to go out shopping or have my hair done so I had some time out - now it's completely different - I struggle to get him to help out when I'm juggling dinner and bath time. He loves his son so much and is a wonderful dad but he really only has play time these days - I do all the other stuff! I wanted to start yoga in the evenings but he can't handle putting the baby to bed so I can't go out at night not that I would but if I wanted to book a massage or a wax or go to the gym without taking up our weekend I can't do it. Plus my mothers group is going out for dinner in Friday which I'm missing out on. I've just realised the point of my post was about supporting you and I've turned it into my own whinge fest! Sorry!
Bottom line is I understand how you are feeling especially with your family being overseas as mine is. Why don't you think about going over to nz for a holiday with your girls to spend some time with your family, clear your head a bit and weigh up everything. Massive hugs it sounds like you're having a really crappy time and just hope you get through it quickly x