I'm angry that I'm in a position like his I'm angry that she made this even a situation. I shouldn't feel hesitant about contacting her, I shouldn't even be questioning it all but because of her I am.
I'm angry at what she did to me, said to me and put me through. I'm angry that when I needed her she wa to caught up in herself to give a hoot.
I was at peace with having her out of my life, it took me a long time, counselling, crying ad if anything all it's done is stirr up all these things I thought I had moved on from.
There's what I want to do and what I should do and the feeling like no matter what I pick its wrong.
I'm probably making no sense but needed to get it out get others perspective and hear what other would do. I can't wait til DH comes home all I want is a hug.
Tank(mastiff x)+Echo(oz cattle)