I thought i'd post on here because i'm pretty much incognito (except for one lovely BHer). I'm having a person issue and I don't know what to do.
We all know kids, when they start to develop self awareness the start to experience embarassment, shyness etc. So we know it's about looking into ones self... so to speak.
My issue is this; I am a serial blusher. It fluctuates and usually coincides with low self esteem. Right now, anyone is having the effect. Groups of people, realising someone is looking at me in my peripheral vision, talking to important people. Right now it's getting worse and i't shappening with peers. The most troubling is my line manager. Everytime he comes in my direction, I run.. It's not specific to him and I don't have any feelings for him, he's just the worst culprit right now.
Please people... help me out here.
I tried beta blockers when I was 16 and also abused valium and mercyndol in high school to make me 'relax' but, it never worked.
it's not a healthy predicament to be in. I'm constantly beating myself up and this is progressing. I need some major advice. I have tried deep breathing and have fantastised about having the surgery that 'cures blushing'. Seriously, though; I don't think having my lungs deflated so they can clip a nerve is the best way to go..
Oh and to add, I spoke to my nan about it once. She said she was EXACTLY the same.