everything has spiraled out of control.
I cant get my 5mths old to sleep. at all.
My 2 yr old who was the world's best sleeper once we overcame her sleep issues, is now waking thru the night with DS who wakes 3-4 times. im lucky to get 1/2hr out of her for a day nap. She NEEDS her sleep. she still NEEDS 2 hours minimum during the day, i dont care what other's say, she is not 'dropping' that nap - something has disturbed her, my guess is it's DS who is up all day and all night. He is completely unsettled all day bacause he's so overtired. so all my time is spent settling him, getting him to sleep or holding him. The baby carrier actually stops me doing things, i cant hold DD while im using it and it gets in my way. It slows me down, i cant get down to DD's level. It's too heavy for me.
DD has ben left to fend for herself too much and she is suffering. We dont do fun/educational things at home anymore because DS is so full on. She's turned into a bratty, demanding and sooky little girl - that's just not her at all. It's all my fault. She goes to playgroup and daycare for 1 day but that's all i can manage atm.
I just sent her to her room because she just wouldnt stop crying and i cant understand what she wants - she has language delay. She hasnt slept today and i know she is tired.
I feel unsupported, depressed, lonley and angry.
I cant get anything right.