While laying in bed thinking (aftrer G's morning wakeup call) i was thinking bout a conversation i had with a friend the other week.
She is not a mum so the feelings she didnt really understand.
We were dicussing the fact that i long for a VBAC next time around. She was telling me of her other friend that had a VB about 2 weeks after G was born. She is having problems, and had alot of tearing - birth trauma - got sick - the works. My friend cant understand why i would want to have a VB. I had a great C-section. I was up and moving and chripy when they came into visit 5-6 hours after G was born. So in her knowledge - VB = pain and distruction of body, C/S = vertiually a painfree birth...
I told her that i long for the connection, the experience and even some of the pain that goes with a VB. I dont want to be wonderwoman and do it drug free. I just want to experience my baby being born the way they were 'meant to'....
I tried for awhile to explain how i felt - but it was difficult.
In the end it came down to me saying that there is no real way that she could understand my feelings until she had a C/S herself (especially first time round).
My point of this post is to see if others agree. These feelings of longing for birth - the way i do - only come with having a C/S. Not every mother will know what they feel like - only C/S mothers - expecially first time mums.