So a couple of weeks ago i miss AF and FREAKED OUT. Then when it arrived over a week late, i discoveren i'd actually m/c'd. Relief turned into heartbreak and DH suggested we might TTC #3. Yay!
But... he is a little concerned how i will cope with another. I had a rough time with our first. Had PND for years, well pretty much until DD was eventually diagnosed with Autism (and i finally realised i wasnt a terrible mother). She's now off at school, and we are managing her issues much better these days, plus the school day gives me daily respite. DS (who is NT) is 20 months now. Many people tell me he is such a handful and very mischievous but in my eyes, compared to DD, he is an absolute breeze!
I do want another, and then i'll be "done". But am i nuts? I already have two gorgeous kids, a girl and a boy. Why rock the boat? A special needs kid and a very active almost 2yo, should i really throw a newborn into the mix?? And what if bubs is on the spectrum too?
Feeling very torn. What if its too much and i regret it