My baby died at 20 weeks a couple of months ago. Since then I have had such bad anxiety. In the beginning it was extreme I felt like I couldn't function and the thoughts in my head would never turn off it was like torture. The last month or so I have felt in control of it. Still with irrational thoughts but I could manage to let logic overcome them. Well today it has come back full force. I can not function. I am just a mess crying because I am sick of all of this pain when will it ever end?! I am yelling at my kids because I do not have the head space for them right now. I have no support no one to come and help. I am a mess. I feel so stupid that this is the only place I can ask for help or vent. I feel like such a loser that I have no one in my life who is there for me (other than my husband but he is always at work). I don't know how I am going to get through the day. I am seeing a psychologist but my appointment isn't for another 2 weeks. I just need to get through today but all I want to do is lay down and cry. I feel so embarrassed laying all my emotions out for the world to see I just don't know what to do.