I came across this website are researching and decided to make an account because I really need to discuss what is happening right now. I hope it isn't too long.
I am 19 years old, working part time and living out of home paying my own way. My partner is 21 and doing the same. A week ago I began to get this feeling I was pregnant. I took a test and sure enough, a faint but positive result. The pill had failed (nothing is 100 percent).
I called my partner in to talk about options and he said that he will support me in whatever choice I make but he would rather me terminate due to himself not being ready and us having plans to travel in the next year.
I completely agree with his response, but I don't know if I would have an abortion and not regret it straight away. I know there is always a risk when having sex, but I always took steps to prevent it. I still have so much of my life that I want to do. I plan on studying in the next few months which takes 4 years to complete, I plan on traveling, starting a career, getting married, just everything I wanted to do before having a baby.
I know they are all selfish reasons and it was my choice and I have to face the responsibilty but I'm scared and don't want to lose everything. I don't think I could abort, but I don't think I could raise a child and not regret my life before. Nor could I adopt for personal reasons. I shouldn't make a choice based on someone else, but knowing my partner does not want me to have the child makes the choice so much harder. I don't want to do something he isn't ready for, and nor am I for that reason but I know I'll live in regret if I abort.
I really just need some support. I am crying all the time and so confused.