Thank you so much for your thoughts Michelle and Pinkblue.
Mammalinz I had my procedure today so understand how you may be feeling tonight. I had a terrible weekend waiting to be honest and found it hard controlling my emotions. I was extremely anxious over the thought of today and have to admit I froze for a split second as I walked into the surgery theatre. I also remember having tears in my eyes as I went under but thankfully that is the last I remember. The hospital staff and my FS (who did the procedure) were so kind and assured me that once I was under another scan would be done first just to double check Friday's news that the heartbeat had stopped. I knew there was no hope it was wrong but I so appreciated the gesture and them letting me know they were doing that. Physically I am doing fine so far - just some very minor cramping. I was supposed to go back to work tomorrow but I think I might take it off as more than anything I just feel drained. I am glad the procedure is over - in some way I think it means I can now really start saying goodbye. I don't know yet what is to come and how I'll cope but just going to take one day at a time.
I will be thinking of you tomorrow xx