Maybe organise something exciting to do with your partner...something you haven't done before or haven't done for a long time (DH and I went tenpin bowling a couple of times at the start of the year...i hadn't been since i was a kid). It can be so hard when your focused on ttc for so long that it can consume your life.
I understand exactly what you mean about feeling cheated/loss of innocence even though it hasn't taken us as long. Especially when you want to have kids young and it feels like its never going to happen.
Can you come up with some sort of long term financial goal whereby you might be able to afford to go private? I know its not ideal but might help you feel more in control and that one day you'll be able to get a bfp even if its later than you wanted?
Fx you don't need it though.
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