Im not sure where else to turn.. Im a mum to two beautiful little girls who I parent with my ex girlfriend. My now husband and I are having a baby and well ever since I got pregnant I have felt nothing but quite severe depression and wondering if I even really want this baby. We planned this bubs, so i know i shouldn't feel like this but i feel so isolated and worried I will be ripped with judgement if I talk to anyone else about it.
Everyone else got so excited when I told them i was expecting, I just cant get there myself. I have just been so exhausted running after my two girls and trying to work, while keeping a house. I feel so stressed all the time and the thought of going through labour again just makes me shudder.
I don't feel excited about buying things for the bubs and Im not even bothering with my 14 week ultrasound. I just don't know whats wrong with me, or if others have felt the same way?
I hate the fact its only my life that changes with being pregnant ( husband can go on with his life as if nothing is happening). Sometimes i feel so invisible i just want to scream