Thanks preciousone for your lovely message. It was very timely to read as DP has come around a bit - he's not excited (but neither am I) but termination is no longer on the table. I think for him it was big shock and he just wanted it sorted gone quickly, but 6.5 weeks now it's there it's real it'll be hard but we'll deal with it. I think I really only considered termination for him or our family as a whole, he was so unhappy, I didn't want to feel like I was being selfish and not taking him and our family unit into proper consideration. Weirdly I feel worse about it now, suddenly there is no way out and I have to start dealing with the reality and it's quite scary. And morning sickness is kicking in and gees it's hard enough when it's something you really want!! I'm not allowing myself to feel guilty about this ambivalence as I know I will love this child wholeheartedly once it's born. I just have some stuff to work through. The love will be there when it's really important.
Anyways, thanks for the support, still not ready to tell any friends so it's really appreciated :-)