Well, hello Ladies................
How was everyone's Christmas?? I do hope you all had a wonderful day with your family/friends. It was just DP and I this year, which was lovely and under the circumstances, turned out to be the best thing all round.
We went over to drop off Xmas pressies to my youngest sisters place on Xmas eve and while I was there we were having a girlie chat about everything and I was bemoaning the fact I thought this cycle had failed again as I was having no symptoms besides slightly swollen breasts, on and off cramps and some headaches all of which were no doubt side effects of the Progesterone etc blah, blah, blah.
When we got home later that night, I was in the bathroom performing my nightly "ablutions" before bed and when I'd finished going to the toilet, I wiped and there it was.....bright pink staining on the toilet paper Readied myself for impending AF and went out and told DP "Merry Xmas, my period's just started. Obviously that's what these cramps have been about the last few days". DP was crushed, then I said "Oh well, it could of been worse, it could of shown up first thing in the morning and really spoiled the day". I then went to bed wondering why I wasn't having any cramps (as cramping and bleeding go hand in hand with AF and I), then dismissed the thought as I remembered how bad last cycle's BFN AF was......painful, heavy etc and figured because she'd arrived so late, I'd have all that to look forward to the next day. With that depressing thought in mind, I went to sleep (a very broken, restless sleep I might add).
Cue Xmas morning (11dpt3dt), I'm in the bathroom and changing my "feminine hygiene product" when I notice there's no blood (only dried brown blood from the night before's spotting/staining, no tell tale cramps or heavy feeling in my stomach etc.....) "WTF's going on??" I thought "This isn't right" As you can imagine, I was tired and confused and over the whole thing by then. "F**k it!!, I'm going to do a HPT. I know it'll be negative. I won't even tell DP, I'll just see the BFN with my own eyes, throw the stick away and get on with the day. Frigging knew I should of got a few UDL's for today".
So, I took the test and as I watched the sample move across the window, straight away the impression of the first line came up. "WTF???" and as I watched the test complete itself and the seconds tick by to the 3 min mark, I watched my BFP unfold in front of my eyes!!! That's right girls, MY BFFP!!!!!!! As you can imagine I was in the bathroom chanting all sorts of nonsense about being pregnant and having a baby and after about 5 mins I went and woke DP and told him what happened. He was happy, but cautious because of what happened on Cycle 1.
The line was a good, strong line (not quite as dark as the control, but not far off) and I spent most of yesterday looking at the test not quite believing that it was true. Because of the Xmas closures, I'm not due for my Beta BT until Monday (when I'll be 19dpo..although it should be this Sat coming I have it) but am thinking of trying to sneak one in at my GP's surgery tomorrow or Sat. Until then, will just keep on POAS for reassurance. As long as the line is still there and not fading, then that's all I can ask for at this point.
I did my second test this morning and the line came up straight away like yesterday and it's dried to be a smidgen stronger than yesterdays and almost as strong as the control line today, so that's comforting to see at this stage and I feel that whatever this pregnancy will be, it's definitely not a Chemical this time. Only time will tell and DP and I are taking one day at a time. As we all know, things can change in this game at the drop of a hat and there's so many stepping stones ahead between getting a BFP and bringing home a healthy, happy baby.
I feel like I'm holding this huge metaphorical breath and that from here on in, every stepping stone we cross successfully on the way will be when I let just a little bit of breath out again. I'm still having bugger all symptoms at this point. The only things are still......slightly fuller breasts (with no pain, sensitivity, itchiness, blue veins etc...in fact, you could play the drums on them, they feel so normal), bloating (despite losing weight since EPU/ET), headaches, the odd vivid dream, I have no interest in food and am not hungry (when I do eat, I feel full after only a few bites or so), I feel a bit "off" in the mornings (though no nausea or even queasiness) and am finding it hard to drink my cuppa in the morn's too.
I also have increased thirst..(the headaches/increased thirst started at 12dpo) and that's it ladies. If the test didn't show a BFP, I wouldn't believe it myself at this stage. I had more "preggo" symptoms after taking the Pregnyl booster shots, than what I have now!!! Oh, btw, forgot to mention I only took 2 booster shots instead of three as well (kind of sort of forgot the 3rd...woops), so when I took the HPT yesterday, it was 8dp my last Pregnyl shot too.
So that's where I'm at ladies!!!!! Can't believe one of the "3 Amigo's" has made itself at home!!! Thankfully, I've had no more spotting/staining episode's and I won't although I do understand they are fairly common and normal for us IVF girls. So now we wait for Beta bloods and see where we're at. Will update you as I go of course I've got a sticky, healthy and happy little "belly bean" growing inside!!! Good job "Santa Wazza"!!!!!
Ok girls, must go. Enjoy your Boxing Day. We're off to my other sisters later on today to drop off the rest of the Xmas presents. Take care my lovelies and until next time.........