I just thought I would update you all on where I finished up. On the 17th May 2013 at 20:04 I gave birth to my son, Chance who weighed just 50grams. I kept him with me and my husband overnight and in the morning I said goodbye and he is now being cremated and will be back with us soon. I got the most beautiful pair of footprints and I am getting a tattoo on Thursday in his memory. Although we made the decision that was right for our whole family the loss of him from our lives has left a massive hole in our hearts. It has been without doubt the hardest thing I have every had to do. When we sat down and told the other kids we all shed many tears. They understand as best they can and I can tell they are trying very hard to be good for Mummy while I am feeling so lost. I have had overwhelming support from my family and friends but nothing takes away the emptiness I feel. I know our decision was right for us all but that doesn't make it any easier.
Thank you for all of your good wishes xxx