I'm so lonely and it's making me really sad. DH is meant to finish work at 5 (and would therefore be home at 6) but he never gets home before 8.30pm these days.
By then I've done all the housework, cooked & eaten my dinner (I'm not eating dinner at 9pm) and got everything ready for the next day. I seem to need a lot of sleep so I usually go to bed at 9.30 or 10pm so basically have next to no time with DH at all in the evenings. He just says he has to get the work done....
We do spend some time together on the weekends, but also seem to spend a huge amount of time with family (particularly his) and going out and about doing errands etc.
I don't really have many friends, and those I do have work late all week (mostly shifts/casual etc) or start early the next day and therefore don't really want to do stuff after work. And they all just want to go out and get wasted on the weekend & I'm not really into that anymore.
I don't drive and the public transport is **** so it's virtually impossible for me to get anywhere, so I can't even really go out anywhere. Sometimes on ADO's I go out by myself which is ok, but would be better with friends.
DH & I are constantly fighting about how late he gets home from work and he just doesn't get it. He thinks I just want to spend time with him & that I'm getting angry cause he's always at work. Of course I want to spend time with him, but also I just want to spend time with SOMEONE. And given it's easiest to spend time with him, I find myself getting really angry when he gets home so late.
I also have an anxiety disorder so it makes it really hard to join groups etc (if I could even get there without driving).
I don't know what to do anymore.
And I'm really scared that when we have kids this will still be happening (DH at work till late at night etc) and I'll basically be a single mum during the week in terms of raising the child, and I definitely know how lonely I'll be then. And again, he just doesn't get it.