Today I had a "why me moment". My sister in law who I love as if she was my blood sister, told us her good news today that her and her partner of 7 months are pregnant. She's the same age as I am, has the same chances as we have, just the two of them were lucky. It wasn't planned, it just happened. My partner and I, together for 5 years, just haven't been that lucky. That's life, I know that, and self pitty is a time waster. I envy her, of course I do, I'm not jealouse, I am happy for her and wouldn't want it to be different, she deserves this just as much as as I do, or any of us. She was lucky. But I still want to cry.
40 + 9 months, 6 IUI's and 2 IVF's. hopefully starting 3rd end May