All I wanted was to have a baby and we ttc for nearly a year when we finally fell pregnant with a little boy who is now two weeks off being 1!
I love him to death and our family feels complete but I'm really not the mum I thought I would be!
I don't even want to admit this - but I have found since having him that I am really lazy, I don't play with him as much as I imagined I would, and I don't keep the house clean or cook every night.
I am so ashamed - I am normally very organised and love serving my family but lately I feel like I just can't be bothered to do anything and now my home feels like chaos and I feel so depressed that I am not the mother I thought I would be.
I feel like my mum thinks I am a hopeless mum and I really want to change but I just don't know what to do! I feel like it just isn't as simple as just doing it, and I am wondering if anyone else has felt like this and if so, what did you do?
Please no nasty comments, I feel bad enough already