I was diagnosed with PCOS about 6 years ago now and DH and I haven't used protection since DS (who is nearly 9) was about 18 months old. I've had one confirmed miscarriage and at least 1 unconfirmed. There have been times where we've charted and done all sorts of things to try and improve our chances of getting a BFP but more often than not we just found it all too stressful and went back to "if it happens it happens" mode. With moving around and living with family for some time this just seemed to be the easiest thing anyway.
My last cycle has been a bit mixed up and resulted in me seeing my GP to work out WTF was going on. One of the first things she asked me was if I'd done a HPT. To be honest it wasn't something I'd thought of because I had what I thought was AF. Yes it was weird but it was a bleed. I've had weird AF's before and just thought it was another one but it got scary and when it stopped after 2 weeks (yep 2 weeks of AF....not the first time that's happened) and I was still getting pain/discomfort I thought it was time to get it checked out. Anyway, she sent me off for an urgent beta HCG blood test. That was Wednesday afternoon. I didn't get a chance to call back that day, Thursday was a public holiday here and she doesn't work on Friday's so I've had to wait all this time and I will finally find out the results of that test tomorrow morning.
I'm so trying not to let my head run away with the thought that I may be pregnant. I want nothing more than for it to be the case but I'm also very aware that the chances are slim, even though I have lost 12kg and they say that can help. Since the GP bought it up I can't help but feel that the things I'm feeling and experiencing are similar to what I felt in the early stages with DS. I also can't help but feel that the newer things I'm experiencing are psychosomatic. It's been a rollercoaster of emotions to say the least. I know I could have gone out and bought a HPT but I'm honestly too scared to. If it's negative I will feel bad because I've wasted money when the results are already there just waiting for me. It's doing my head in!!
So after all this DH and I have decided it's time to start taking things a little more seriously if this isn't our BFP. He has had a testosterone test done (but that's because he's on pain meds and they seem to think there is some correlation to long term pain med use and low testosterone levels) and he will be getting a semen analysis done very soon. For me there will be more tests to work out what is going on and more than likely going to the gyno seeing as I haven't seen one in some time due to moving around a fair bit.
I'd love to talk to others who are in a similar situation regarding TTC with PCOS and the complications that can arise.