Thank you for your reply..
Wow your message makes me feel horrible - emotional affair.. emotionally innapropriate relationship.. I have not thought this was the case at any point. My god - I rely on his support, his guidance, he is a doctor & I finally, finally don't feel so lost. In return, he talks to me about his life, his problems.. We have a friendship & it would never go further. I just finally feel like I can live again, I've been able to resume full time work (this was an actual impossibility 2 months ago). Is that wrong? I am feeling so much more confused!