I think nancy meant that if you are waiting for this case to go through the boards and decision made regarding your GP, and his conduct towards you, in order to gain some kind of closure or ability to move on, it may be a while.
She is advocating for you to move on and get the help you need irrespective of where the case is headed etc.
complaints can take a while, to collate evidence etc etc. don't wait for a verdict before getting yourself better.
I'm so glad you reopened the thread. I was worried for you.
Please know we are here for you and are not judging you. Tone can be misread on forums, and what is meant can be misconstrued.
Please stop saying you are selfish etc. you are ill. Not selfish. You are doing your best to try and pull yourself up out of a very deep hole. You are to be commended.
But in answer to your question, yes breaking the addiction can feel like depression. For me, I went through a myriad of feelings: angry that I couldn't submit to my addiction, guilt that I'd gotten that bad in the first place, shame that that was who I'd become, desperation to do it again, feeling like I couldn't go on or think about anything else until I got my fix. It really is so hard to get away from addiction but you can do it. You really can I know you feel absolutely horrible for what's happened, but beating yourself up about it isn't going to do any good sweetie. Acknowledge it was wrong, but focus on what you can do right now and today that's right. The past is done - you can't change it. But you can do your best in the present. It does get easier, I promise. If you ever want to pm me, please do. Hell, if you want to text me, pm me and I'll give you my details. I'd rather you text me than him x
Glad you are back.. I don't understand why you need to see his report before writing your own?? Tell the truth. The odds are he will be quick to file his report & may have already done so and as others have said IF he showed you a report its unlikely to be the real report he is lodging. He is still stringing you along & controlling the situation. Do not believe a word this person says to you, everything will be done for his own interest, not yours. That has already been proven. Take care of yourself, lock your phone away & put your energy in to your family.
I see what you are saying there, but he has been contacting me too, even calling from the clinic. He wants me to change my story.
I had deleted most of the previous texts, though did still have texts where he had said he was disappointed I didn't kiss him, that his feelings for me continued to deepen, that I was beautiful & he bonded with me etc, that I "pleased" him (argh... Yuk I make myself want to vomit). So yeah he could say all that about me but he texts are not going to help that plan..
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