I need some advice..
I have been really stupid. I got to the point where I didn't believe I could function without the support of my GP. I am totally insane. I don't know what is wrong with me. I basically begged him to talk to me & told him I'd give him whatever he needed to have his support. I haven't, I don't want to, I just am a screw up right now.
I am in no way attracted to this man - I saw him & thought "what is it??? Why am I so obsessed??????" Seeing him does not make me feel good. I feel creepy, he is old & weird & what the hell is wrong with me....... It is the texts, knowing this doctor cares, though he is not very nice to me anymore. Ladies I don't know what to do but I am going to ruin my life. He lifts my depression momentarily which is going to cause me so much future pain.
I have a beautiful little girl, a husband who loves me & who I know I love. I feel so god damn empty & useless without him.
How do I just STOP! How do I get better?
i know I will be judged here & I know I deserve that, but I need help so I had to come here.