Thank you everyone for your replies today. I agree with you that he is in the wrong, it just doesn't stop the feelings of loss & guilt but I suppose that's something thing ill have to work through..
I did pick up my records, & breifly spoke with the practice manager. He suggested a meeting between the doctor her and myself to work out what to do with AHPRA. I'm so not going to be involved in that meeting.
Driving back from there to work, I lost control of my car and had a little accident. It scared the crap out of me & hopefully helps put things into perspective a little more.
wow, what a day. Thank you all so much. He has officially stopped textin me as of last night, so I've made it through my first day..