Well done in having a conversation that must have been so hard. As I said before. I think you are a very strong person and will be able to overcome this and feel proud.
I'm sure you will also feel much better once you have the correct balance of medication, the way I used to see it is that it gives me a relief to be able to put things in a proper prospective and then work on coping mechanisims with therapy.
I'm very sorry that this happened to you, especially at a vulnerable time but I am sure you will be much better and stronger at the end of it!