Just had to wave my little monkeys away for the weekend. DS1 was so upset. Kept asking for one more cuddle and said he wanted to stay with me. My heart breaks for him. I know how I feel so I can't imagine how crushing it is for a 5 year old.
I just told him he can call whenever he wants to talk to me. He absolutely adores his dad and loves the time he spends with him so I have no concerns about him going there. I just feel so unnatural about it all at the moment. It feels wrong to be away from my babies so much (even though it's only 4 nights a fortnight).
I'm sure I'll drink myself stupid, sleep all day tomorrow and count down the hours until they come home. I'm starting to wonder if perhaps I've got a small case of depression. My doctor has mentioned it to me and I brushed it off. But I'm finding myself more and more wishing my days away. I don't like feeling like this as I'm normally a positive go getter. I just haven't been myself lately and I miss that happy and secure feeling I used to have being a single mother