Ive got 5 day old twins and yesterday I made the decision to formula feed them. Ive tried breast feeding this week and I am getting good amounts but the babies are having trouble sucking so they are slso getting bottle and tube fed....meaning I am expressing alot to. I simply just can't handle it. My stress levels are through the roof and I've found the idea of breast feeding/mix feeding two babies at once quite scary! I do have great support from my ob and the twins pead.
Anyway, my question is how do I seal with that guilty feeling of not breast feeding? I know it's the right decision for me but I think I feel a bit lazy and guilty that I didn't try harder.
Also, how did you manage 'drying' your milk up? How long did it take. I lasted about 17 hours without expressing but was in agony so the nurses got me to express a tiny amount out for comfort!
Im heading home tomorrow and the twins stay in special care for a week or so to get their feeding under control so Im very emotional and exhausted!!