Last night I had a massive anxiety attack because I just can't take it anymore. Everything is so overwhelming and I worry about everything, I try to control everything, I get nervous about everything and hate feeling the way I do every day! I wake up feeling anxious! My mind does not stop, I worry about work (I am self-employed) I worry about my son, I worry about what I have to do tomorrow and the next day. We are now selling our house, so that's on my mind, money is on my mind because things are tight. I love what I do for work but my confidence levels are starting to drop, I have highs and lows. One moment I think I can do it and I'm on top of the world and the next I think I should pack it in and go and find a job instead of working for myself. But one of major problems that I'm having is that my anxiety is affecting my relationship with DH. The problem is that I NEVER feel like dtd, it doesn't even cross my mind yet my DH asks and asks and brings up the topic and he is beyond understanding anymore. He's starting to get angry about it. It has caused many fights of late and I just don't know what to do. I have tried many things to try and get in the 'mood' but my libido is absolutely non existent. I love my DH very very much, however, my DH is beyond waiting. So many times I've said to him "once this is finished, I'll be more relaxed. Or, once my medication kicks in, it'll be ok'. Oh and I cannot pretend to want to dtd just to satisfy my husband, I find that very difficult.
I want my anxiety gone, I want to live a life without it and I want to fix my relationship. Has anyone else gone through this? What did you do?