I apologize in advance if this comes out fractured I need to get it off my chest .
I was with the same man for 5 years and married to him for 11 months, We have a 2 year old son together. In November the relationship broke down and we went our separate ways.
I ended up moving to Queensland from Melbourne to make a fresh start met someone and fell pregnant. Being pregnant and away from my family I had a breakdown and came back here to get some help and spend time with my family. While I have been here I came to realise I can't go back to Queensland.
When I suggested to the father of this unborn baby that he move down here we got in to a huge fight and he ended the relationship.
Since then he has been sending me nasty text messages which is sending me spiraling further in to depression. It has gone to the point where I dont feel anything but indifference to this unborn child inside me. When I was pregnant with my first child I fell in love with him straight away, with this child I burst in to tears just at the thought of looking for baby stuff.
I am going to have this baby no matter what but I feel like I cant do this.
Even as I sit here writing this the nasty texts have started. He is currently blaming me for not being able to see his other child when it has nothing to do with me. I am going to have to change my number.
I am going to seek psychiatric help but for now I am so lost and lonely I just needed to get it all off my chest.